somebody called me gorgeous today and it felt really weird
like i know i'm supposed to be flattered or whatever, but i'm??? not??? pretty--god forbid--gorgeous??? really at all???
i can tell that this guy has been trying to get up the courage to tell me that he likes me or ask me out on a date or whatever and OF COURSE my answer will be no but like this little bastard is going out of his way to compliment me and i really don't know how to take it. i guess i'm just gonna take it for now and wait and see
i definitely didn't make a playlist when i was heartbroken and then went back to listen to it a little while later and realized that it fuckin slapped.
i'm definitely not posting it here because wow???
if you don't like country music then don't listen. best played when shuffled.
dear mom and dad,
just because you're angry at two people in my life who don't conform to the gender binary that you hold as gospel doesn't mean that you can use the wrong pronouns for either of them.
please. this is exhausting.
just use names or don't talk about either of them. i have far more pressing things to deal with than your understanding of who i choose to love and what the people i choose to love choose as his/her/their pronouns. this isn't a new issue. i have dated people who have used an array of pronouns--you were fine using she and you were fine using they but for whatever reason two separate people at different points in my life choose to use he and that's where you draw the line?? really?? i haven't even dated one of them and you have a weird pre-conceived vendetta against a person who has been nothing but kind to me during the move to america.
i'm just gonna stop talking to y'all about my love life and that is that.
much love and i'll be out of your house soon,
#delilah.txt #there's a boy at school #and ohhhhhh my god my parents won't shut up about how i fall into old patterns #mom and dad also didn't want me dating the past couple of people i dated so #it's not like i really care what they think at this point #we just keep rehashing it and it's tiring2 notes
citrus & balsam??
balsam must be really popular because you are the third person to ask. I'm happy to answer another one if you message me.
citrus: are there any accessories you wear every day?
i wear a caffeine molecule necklace almost every day.
tea tree and balsam and rosemary!
tea tree: do you often remember your dreams? if so, what did you dream about last night?
i remember my dreams sometimes. not all the time though. last night I dreamt about a life I might like to have one day--and I think I'll keep that to myself.
i already did balsam, but I'm happy to do a different one if you message me again.
rosemary: what's something good about you that even your worst enemy would have to agree with?
i make really good sandwiches.
balsam: what does a perfect day look like to you?
i see what you're trying to do here. you ain't slick 😉
a perfect day to me would probably involve a few cups of coffee, brunch, and laying around all day on a couch or bed watching movies or knitting beside Spider. I would want some kind of mac n cheese at some point also.
Lavender and Peppermint for the ask meme!
lavender: what always calms you down when you're stressed out?
i tend to knit, and when I cant do that I try to remember people in my life who make it lovely
peppermint: do you have a sweet tooth?
yes, unfortunately, which made moving back to America really hard
why are 3/4 of the people in my intro to business class super fucking creepy?
hell yeah i'm guzzling vitaminwater zero!
Boy in my class: So you got a boyfriend?
Me, fucking pissed because this is the tenth time I've been asked this in the past two months: No. And I'm not looking for one.
Boy: What traumatic event happened to turn you off to having a boyfriend?
Me, ice cold, no trace of joking in my voice: Sexual assault.
Boy: You need to drop that attitude with me
Me: And you need to shut the hell up.
#delilah.txt #vent #i'm about to fucking cry #these motherfuckers think they can say whatever they want to me #and honestly they can #because i hardly put up a fight #because i'm tired #and they know that #so they keep doing it #i have half a mind to just tell them i'm gay #at least then they'll be able to come up with things to say that don't make me so fucking mad #these were the same guys who asked me if white people drank hamburgers with milk and i thought it was just playful shit they were giving me but i've given them too much power #clearly4 notes
i'm gonna do a cryptid square tonight. i'm hoping to finish it. tonight. wish me luck
#delilah.txt #yarn and stuff #knitting #here's hoping it works #shhhhhh don't tell spider #i'm just kidding #i can't knit things for them #i'm too scared of getting what i think he might want wrong #and it's so much work to do #that i don't think i could take it if he didn't like #that's why i don't do much knitting for him #i am quite scared of getting knitting wrong for most people #actually #but spider matters more than other people #because reasons6 notes
you can post all you want but if you aren't aware that i can see and accurately read tons into what you're saying then either you're lying to yourself or you are doing it on purpose